My heart has craved adventure for as long as I can remember. I never really know what kindof an adventure I want, because it's so different from the people closest to me. Like my best friend-she is possibly the most adventurer girl I know, and yet our idea and our approach to adventure is really different. Or a another friend, her idea of adventure is settling down and having one place to call home. It's one of the things that has honestly frustrated me about being back home, I feel like there's such a lack of adventure here for me. Day in and day out-things are the same. I seem to tack it on the hustle and bustle of a city life. But last Sunday I was struck with the great reality that Trusting God will probably be the greatest adventure I will ever take. Because it's scary and thrilling all at the same time. Trusting Him whole heartedly. And I haven't, because it's hard. And so I've been fighting, fighting with those around me, fighting in my head with people who are five thousand miles away, or in a nearby country. But what I never really realized, is that I have been really fighting with God,even though I cried surrender, I really
wasn't surrendering, I still held on so tight to the reins. Refusing to let go. I had lost all hope of a future. I had taken things into my own hands and failed. I had failed miserably, and lost all hope. Hope in our creator. Our God is a God of hope, and I had just really I had lost hope. I was a hopeless individual walking around the halls of classes, and libraries without hope. But a human being without Hope, without God who is Hope, is not really living. It starts to become shuffle and a miserable existence.
But God whispers to the deep within our hearts, to our sin, to our selfishness, to our pride:
"Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and the rivers of the desert."-Is. 43:19
We may think we can't do it. It's too hard, we failed. But nothing, NOTHING is impossible for Him.
He knows.
"'For I know the plans I have for you', says the Lord, 'Plans for good and not to harm you, to give you a FUTURE and a Hope.'"-Jer. 29:11
So Trusting Him-may scare me and thrill me. But I am willing to do it. And I may not go out and save lives and heal wounds, but I am embarking in the greatest adventure of all. To Trust God wholeheartedly and to lay my pride down. And to stop fighting with Him. To Trust in Him and his never failing love and his never ending promises. And maybe my soul will now resonate with Paul in Philippians 4:12-13
"I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need, I can do ALL things through Him who strengthens me."
So from a busy city, Hope and Adventure are found in the greatest Love of all. As I lay down my pride, and my anger at His feet. And finally surrender to these great rivers of adventure He offers. To give you a Future and a Hope.
